35 weeks and counting!!

5 weeks ago I was laying in a hospital bed feeling miserable. I was preparing myself for some very premature babies!! Who would have thought that miracle after miracle would occur and I would be writing this blog with my girls still where they belong.....inside of me, instead of an incubator!!

I refer to this period as my "bedrest lent". Yep, we are challenged during the season of lent to give something up so that we might turn that focus on God when we find ourselves struggling to overcome that 'thing'. I typically choose not to participate in this challenge as it seems we choose to give up something so meaningless or materialistic and frankly i just didn't want to change anything in my life! Well this year i didn't have the choice, bed rest was chosen for me and I have given up work and all activity so that i might give my girls the best possible chance for survival! Not an easy task for the girl who can't sit still!! I can't say that it has been easy the last few weeks, in fact it has been extremely difficult. I cry at every emotion and I worry about every detail. In the middle of the night when I can't sleep, as I am biting my lip during yet another injection, or when I am lonely and staring at the computer screen I find myself in conversation with God.

My God is answering all our prayers, he is pouring blessing upon blessing on our lives and for this I am grateful!! I am just beginning to realize the favor in life bestowed upon anyone who receives it and the lesson of patience for these long days during the lenten season! When the day is finished and I reflect, I still have 2 healthy baby girls, a most loving and giving husband, and friends and family that constantly encourage me!!

Here I am at 35 weeks!!! 2 more weeks to go!!!